So last Friday, i played mahjong in office.
Yes, you heard me right.. I played mahjong in office.
No money involved though.
It was part of an event organized by our 'welfare committee'.
But actually, i don't know how this can be considered 'welfare' since my other colleague K and myself were being 'nominated' to play for our team, not out of our own will.
Anyway, the point is..
I'm quite upset with myself after the game.
Not because i lose the game, but because i lost my temper at one of my colleague L.
For those who play mahjong, you'll know the rule - 'bao1'.
So there's this particular game where i got 'bao1'.
It was quite a casual game and everyone knows that they'll be 'bao1' if they threw a winning bamboo tile.
Right after i discarded a bamboo tile and concluded the game, i was still laughing at my bad luck and the winner's good hand.
But my colleague L, kept ranting on why i didn't discard the other tile instead.
He mentioned the same thing for like three times and that's when i lost my temper and said to him in a very rude manner: "Why don't you play instead? If you don't want to play, then just shut up." (in chinese). He got a shock and really kept quiet after that.
What i am unhappy is that, i don't like onlookers to comment on my decision in the game and not because i got 'bao1' and being sore about losing.
I would have my own considerations before i discard the tile.
Why i didn't throw the other tile is because, i felt the other tile could be a winning tile also (and the possibility is even much higher).
And this may sound stuborn, but it's also because i know that i'll be 'bao1' that's why i decided to take the gamble! If the person's hand is really so good, i'll just take it as bad luck for me and good luck for the winner and PAY FOR ALL la! It's not real money anyway.. What's the big deal!?
Although i did tell L why i chose to discard the tile and why i reacted like that, i'm still kind of affected by what happened.
Not only did i not control my temper and lost it at L, but also made myself look bad in front of so many other people.
And even though i was on a winning streak after that, my mood was totally gone because of what happened.
And it doesn't help that a lot of the onlookers, i actually don't know them.
I bet some of the girls in the the winner's team must be thinking i'm such a bitch and sore loser.
Although i kept telling myself that it's a game and i should forget about it, but the bad feeling is still lingering around..
This feeling sucks -.-
Let's hope some of the bad feelings can be taken away by typing and hopefully i can sleep off all the bad feelings tonight....
(p/s: for those mahjong gamblers out there who are interested to know if i ended up with the least $. I didn't, I came in 3rd. We started with $300, that game costs me $64 and i lose $42 in total. the person who lose the most was down by $70.)